Town later with Jordan then meet up with GF for her birthday! Actually i have no idea what to do later. Omg....:(
Tomorrow's doing something with gf, then dinner Olive Tree restaurant Intercont Hotel(Whatever it is) with my IAP colleagues! Omg!!! Been how many months since i last saw them?!
Then it's clubbing at night! Hopefully it'll be fun uh! Rebel will be packed with people due to the Kris Allen's concert so maybe we'll head to ButterFact instead? hmmmmm...
Then Sha babe & gf's staying over at my place!!! WOOOOOHOO! Prolly continuing my "somethng" then gonna start studying for my Friday paper!
I guess you're right; I'm afraid. I'm afraid to put my guard down. I'm afraid that if you know who I am, you won't feel the same. And I'm afraid that once my barrier is defeated and I'm comfortable, you'll walk away.
Slept for 14 hours yesterday! UBER SHIOK TTM! Been like..................... since i had such long hours of sleep!MUAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!
Practically rotting at home & suddenly craving for KOI bbt soooo... went to AMK to get it with gf! Even though it's like a 1 hr meeting! It's fun uh! hahahahah!
I'm like meeting her everyday this week! WOOHOOO!
Went to Chinatown after that with momo & bro! Saw melville there. LOL! Give me stupid face! lol!!
Then rushed off to Paragon to meet Jordan cause that ass wanna get his Gstar Tee! Rich arse lah! $90 for 1 tee shirt-.-" broody herr!LOL
Laughed like mad uh! Bought a Black hoody from Uniqlo! Like F-I-N-A-L-L-Y! hehehehe!
Home sweet home & im here.. Bored all over again=.=
I believe in true love. I believe in love at first sight. I believe love conquers all. And that doesn’t mean there’s not going to be hard days or difficult things to deal with, because there will be, but finding that person who does it for you and knowing that person loves you back - it just makes things so much easier.
— One Tree Hill
I think we spend too much time wondering why we’re not good enough. We spend too much time overanalyzing, over-thinking, and overreacting. We waste too much time putting ourselves down, so much that we don’t ever stop to see that well, we are good enough. You are good enough. Always remember that.
I thought about how we feel lonely, sometimes to the point of tears, but we don’t let those tears come because we are not supposed to cry. Or how we feel a surge of love for a partner but we don’t say anything because we’re frozen with fear of what those words might do.
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Tuesdays with Morrie
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There are times when I want nothing more than to look you in the eyes, because it's when we're looking at each other in silence that we end up saying the most.
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Anyone can easily walk away from somebody else. Nobody is forced to stay; we all have choices. But the real test is if someone would rather stay with you, even though walking away would be so much easier.
Has been feeling rather down last night, but thanks for cheering me up! (:
Looks can be deceiving, or maybe i should say i'm the one having problems. I seem to trust people too easily? I'm not like this in the past, i keep to myself, shut myself up, when people ask what's wrong, i'll just say "Nahh.. nothing already (:" Only my very very few close friends will know what's going on.
But now i seem to be, nono, I thought that everyone is nice, i let my guards down, exposing myself to danger. Letting people know what's wrong with me, get close to me, I thought everything is fine, I thought I'm so god damn lucky cause i have quality friends not quantity but then again, something gonna come knock me in the head so hard till it hurts so much in the brain & in the heart telling me that "Nahh, this is not the good friend you thought he/she would be" then take you(s) away from me.
Then I'm back to square 1, having to pretend that i never ever knew you(s) before, have to pretend that we're strangers, try not to make myself think of how fun everything use to be in the past, how even though i'm still talking to some now but then again, the feeling's not right anymore.
When you thought that that someone might be thinking or feeling the same way you did, someone will come and tell you things that makes you realizing that "Oh no, you're just like everyone else. You're not even special, words are cheap, they can find anyone like you anywhere."
But then again, this is parts & parcel of growing up isn't it? People come & go, some leave with an impact in your life while some leave with you thinking who that heck this person is.
